I LOVE YOU SO BADLY

Hope you have all had a wonderful Valentines Day and you feel the love! 

But I have to admit, when it comes to my faith, I'm a bad lover. I Love my God with all my heart, soul and mind and will gladly admit that.
But I'm also
Distracted
Inconsistent
Selfish
Just to name a few! 

I try to abide by His word and I fail. I try to do good works and I fail, or do them for the wrong reasons (epic fail). I try to give Him my full attention only to find myself distracted by previous events or upcoming ones. What's a good Christian girl to do???

Fortunately I love a God who is keenly aware of my failings. He loves me so badly it hurts (Him) and He is never distracted or inconsistent or selfish. 

Romans 8:38-39 "For I am convinced that neither death nor life, nor angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Will lying separate us? Nothing
Will past mistakes? Nothing
Divorce? Nothing
Lack of faith and disbelief? Nothing
Anger and Resentment? I believe it says "Nothing."

I once had a conversation with a man about how angry God is. And there are lots stories in the Bible to prove it.  Which leads me to doubt if this God of love truly is willing to love me at all costs.  As Miss Bennett said to Mr. Darcy in Pride and Prejudice, "I hear such different accounts of you as puzzle me exceedingly."

But this I have observed. There are those who see God as angry and ready to strike us down the minute we cross the line. They are usually fearful and judgemental. Then there are those who have taken the other route and decided to rely on the Grace of God that will see them through all their victories and screw ups. They are humble and gracious themselves, utterly understanding the human condition. 

I've decided to throw caution to the wind and go with the latter. Probably makes me easier to be around and I'm not always waiting for the other foot to drop. I keep moving ahead, if I mess up I fess up and learn a few things in the process. 

And I will continue to do my best at loving God and His creations. Even if I do it so badly!